I feel like my blog was getting a bit dark which is going to happen when I am talking about my mental health because my mind can and often is a dark place but I thought I would try do a happier post today.
1. Milly – Not all day everyday because that is just unrealistic but without fail everyday she does something to make me smile.
2. Lee – He is kind of the same as Milly. He winds me up, he pisses me off at times but I love him and he makes me smile when I don’t feel like smiling and that is only something him and Milly can do.
3. My Grandma – The reason my Grandma makes me smile is because she is still here and If I’m being honest when we lost my Grandad I thought I was going to lose her too but she is a little fighter and I am so proud of her. She is lost and broken because she was besotted with my Grandad but she is still here and smiles when she can.
4. Coffee – I’m not exactly sure if coffee makes me smile but I know I can’t live without it that’s for certain!
5. My family – This Includes everyone that Is either blood family and extended family (which I class Lee’s family as) because whenever we are around my family or Lee’s there will6 always be a point where I smile for some reason or another.
6. Christmas – Christmas makes me smile well not the expense of Christmas but the traditions of Christmas like putting up the tree and the decorations, spending time with all the family, the songs and now Milly’s little face when she see’s all the lights etc and of course Santa from a distance lol.
7. Reality TV – I don’t like all reality TV but things like Gogglebox, Big Brother, All the teen moms, celebs go dating, real housewives of Orange county, outdaughtered , 90 day fiancee etc . You knoe all the good shit! 😂😂
8. A clean house – It is very rare I actually have a fully clean house but when I do it makes me smile for about 0.5 seconds before it is destroyed again.
I am only on 8 and I am starting to struggle. If I am being honest I started to struggle after 6 but I am committed to 20 so I will write 20 but it’s going to be a struggle.
How shit must I actually be feeling that only 6 things can genuinely make me smile a happy smile.
9. Having a good clear out of stuff! – I don’t exactly know if this makes me smile a happy smile or it is a smile of relief but it is a smile so that counts.
10. Unicorns – I recently obsessed with unicorns but I’m kind of losing that now like I do like unicorns still but I can take them or leave them where as before I wanted everything Unicorn but now I can take it or leave it. So sometimes they make me smile.
11. Pretty much Everything Disney – That dosen’t need any more explanation does it lol? Lol 😂
12. Chocolate – I have a love hate relationship with chocolate I love it but it hates me lol so when I see it in the shop it might make me smile but after that it all goes down hill !😂
13. Spending money …I don’t have! I enjoy spending money but then I feel shit after when I can’t pay my bills but to be fair that is part of having BPD reckless spending I don’t even realise I’m doing it. I really shouldn’t be in charge of money 🤦♀️
14. Alcohol – I mean of course alcohol makes me smile I can’t believe I didn’t think of it until now!!
15. Hot Weather – I just like hot weather
16. Snow – contrast I like snow too I think it’s really pretty and fun when we get to play out in the snow as a family and throw snowballs at each other 😂😂
This is taking forever I have been writing this list for 2 hours! And it still isn’t complete!
17. Cute baby pictures – How can you not smile at cute baby pics.
18. Laughing babies – They make me smile.
19. Puppies – they make everyone smile
20. Funny Videos – They make me smile because they are funny obviously.
So as you can tell I got desperate and just wrote down things that make most people smile but just wanted this list to end 😂😂
Well thats the end of my list but like I said it could have ended at number 6 but I stuck with it and wrote a load of shit 😂😂
I hope I made you smile tho 😘
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