So tommorow is the day that most women can’t wait for it’s the day I see my dress again for the 1st time in about 4 months and have to try it on and I am absolutely dreading it!!
I can’t even get a little bit excited about it because I am terrified it won’t fit and that would absolutely break my heart and I really couldn’t cope with that but it wouldn’t suprise me because like I said before everything goes wrong for me.
I’ve been trying to start working out again but I have had 4 weeks of tonsillitis and my back is agony after cleaning or lifting things from the car accident we was in two years ago and working out just makes it worse and I try push through the pain and then the next day actually that same night I can’t sleep because of the pain in my back so it’s a loose loose situation.
As much as I love the dress and I think Lee will love me in it but I just can’t get over the fear of it not fitting and that I’m just going to look so fat in it and it makes me want to cry just thinking about it.
My anxiety is absolutely through the roof and I’m not even there yet so god knows what I will be like tommorow but I guess I will let you know how it goes tomorrow!
I guess it’s not goodbye yet for this post it is to be continued …
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