So tommorow is the day that most women can't wait for it's the day I see my dress again for the 1st time in about 4 months and have to try it on and I am absolutely dreading it!! I can't even get a little bit excited about it because I am terrified it won't … Continue reading Dress Fitting no.1
On Sunday I manged to force myself out of the house which is a battle in itself to take Milly up to where her daddy works as they were having a fun day and Milly had an absolute blast which is amazing and made me so happy but I was so on edge and severely … Continue reading A day in my life with crippling anxiety!
What is extreme anxiety? Well it's like ordinary anxiety but an extreme version of it! Basically it makes doing everything terrifying even the smallest of small things that you would think anyone could do but I can tell you for a fact when your scared of everything you can't! We moved house two weeks ago … Continue reading Let’s talk extreme anxiety!
I don't know what's going on or why I am feeling this way but if it gets any worse I'm going to just breakdown... again..! My anxiety is through the roof, my depression is at an all time low, my BPD is more unstable than ever, my self esteem is non existent and I'm just … Continue reading I’m at an all time low..
So as you all know I am currently diagnosed with having borderline personality disorder along with other mental health problems but this diagnosis confuses me as BPD is commonly caused by trauma from childhood but I don't remember anything traumatic really happening in my childhood. I can understand why I have this diagnosis in a … Continue reading Why my diagnosis confuses me
These are just two of the mental illness's I suffer from but without Borderline personality disorder and a severe Anxiety disorder my life could be easier but then it may not be. I guess if I didn't suffer so badly I would be able to work which would put us in a better position financially … Continue reading What do I think my life would be like if I didn’t have BPD and Anxiety!
We all know that we need to be kinder to ourselves, take time out for ourselves but do we do it NO! I know that I don't do it but the reason why I don't do it is because I don't feel I deserve it. I'm going to write 5 things that I should do … Continue reading What are some of the kindest things I can do for myself ?
So I don't even know where to start with this question because I can't remember the last time that my life wasn't tough we just never seem to catch a break! It's not just life tho my BPD fucks me over on a daily basis and like I want to say like that I need … Continue reading When things get tough, I want to remember….
I mean an easier question would have been what don't I struggle with when it comes to my mental health but that isn't the question, so I will do my best to answer in the most honest way I can. Just like I always do! Where should I start? I mean I guess I should … Continue reading What do I struggle with when it comes to my mental health and how can I get more support with it?
Hi everyone So this is an easy one for me to answer: I always fuck everything up and this is not an exaggeration this is the truth! Anything I try do always go's wrong even if it is just something as simple as putting the kettle on to something as big as caring for Milly … Continue reading I always ….