It's been bad for a long time but it's worse today. I woke up this morning wishing that I didn't this does happen a lot but today I was totally devastated that I didn't die in my sleep. I know how that sounds as I have a little girl to live for and my amazing … Continue reading It’s getting bad again!
So we finally have a date to move into our new home and it is in less than a month and we can't wait!! This house has taken a toll on both mine and Lee's mental health as there are so many problems with it including mould that we have reported and that our landlord … Continue reading Our Big move 2019
I'm going to be honest as I always am. The person I am most proud of in my life is Milly of course but what I am most proud of about myself is the fact that I am still alive and sitting here writing this post. Because my god there has been many, many times … Continue reading What am I most proud of ?
Well yesterday I couldn't have been happier and today I couldn't feel more depressed why? I hear you asking, what has changed? And my answer to those questions is nothing absolutely nothing has changed from yesterday to today apart from my mood. Yesterday I felt ontop of the world, I fel invisible, I felt loved, … Continue reading How do I feel in this moment?
Yesterday was my Grandma's funeral and I was absolutely distraught and I felt like people was looking at me wondering why I was so upset because our relationship was so fragile. I also don't think it helped that I would tell people when she had pissed me off and I think that was one of … Continue reading Saying Goodbye!
These are just two of the mental illness's I suffer from but without Borderline personality disorder and a severe Anxiety disorder my life could be easier but then it may not be. I guess if I didn't suffer so badly I would be able to work which would put us in a better position financially … Continue reading What do I think my life would be like if I didn’t have BPD and Anxiety!
So I don't even know where to start with this question because I can't remember the last time that my life wasn't tough we just never seem to catch a break! It's not just life tho my BPD fucks me over on a daily basis and like I want to say like that I need … Continue reading When things get tough, I want to remember….
What made me think about this is Barbra my mum's mum hasn't been very well recently and as part of her care plan they asked if she would want a DNR. I don't know what she answered I'm presuming no but this got me thinking and although I am only 25 if someone asked me … Continue reading DO NOT RESUSCITATE ! (Trigger warning)
When I first read this question I really did think it was going to be difficult one to answer but know I have had time to think about it I actually don't think it's going to be that difficult for me to be honest. So what I have learnt from my mental health struggles is … Continue reading What lessons have I learned from my mental health struggles?
These opinions are totally based on my own personal experience with Mindfulness and I am not in anyway trying to put people off from practicing Mindfulness. Me and Mindfulness have never really had the best relationship as I just can't switch off from my mind and with Mindfulness you have to focus on the moment … Continue reading Speaking my mind on Mindfulness