I know a lot of parents are sad that their kids are going back to school/ playgroup, I am not one of those parents 🤣 I have been counting down since Milly first broke up... that's not even a lie! If that makes me a bad parent then I'm okay with that because playgroup isn't … Continue reading The six week holidays have come to an end !
So tommorow is the day that most women can't wait for it's the day I see my dress again for the 1st time in about 4 months and have to try it on and I am absolutely dreading it!! I can't even get a little bit excited about it because I am terrified it won't … Continue reading Dress Fitting no.1
I know everyone's life is hard but ours just seems ridiculously hard. The world just seems to be against us with everything we try and do. We try and do positive things that should make our lives better and everything just goes to shit.. every single time. If things just went wrong maybe once or … Continue reading Why is life so f*cking hard !
Day 2 of the six week holidays we took Milly to Grass Hoppers which is a play center near - ish to our house and I can't rate it enough. We haven't been there for about a year and it has completely changed it now has an indoor play area aswell as a outdoor playground. … Continue reading Day 2 – Grass Hoppers play area at Tong Garden Centre!
I actually meant to post this yesterday on Monday as that was really the 1st day of the holidays but I forgot to write it. So I will post two today. Yesterday we had a brilliant day 😂 we had a trip to the doctor for me as after 4 days of not having tonsillitis … Continue reading The six week holiday’s have begun!
It's been bad for a long time but it's worse today. I woke up this morning wishing that I didn't this does happen a lot but today I was totally devastated that I didn't die in my sleep. I know how that sounds as I have a little girl to live for and my amazing … Continue reading It’s getting bad again!
Absolutely Nothing it was a pointless waste of time. He kindly informed me that with BPD medication dosen't really work as there is no magic pill (which I already knew) and that basically I just have to get on with the struggle and with age it will hopefully get better as I will come to … Continue reading What I learnt from visiting my psychiatrist!
I don't know what's going on or why I am feeling this way but if it gets any worse I'm going to just breakdown... again..! My anxiety is through the roof, my depression is at an all time low, my BPD is more unstable than ever, my self esteem is non existent and I'm just … Continue reading I’m at an all time low..
This time it's not a person but a house! I know how strange that sounds but this house has had so much happen in it that it's so hard to leave it behind. I'm not talking about our house I couldn't give a shit about leaving this house behind but my Grandma and Grandad's house … Continue reading Saying goodbye!!..again!
I know that some people will find that title difficult to read but it's the truth! I have felt like this for such a long time and everyday the feelings and thoughts get stronger and stronger. They are so strong I can't ignore them anymore I can't push them away anymore the thoughts are constantly … Continue reading I don’t want to be alive anymore!