I know everyone's life is hard but ours just seems ridiculously hard. The world just seems to be against us with everything we try and do. We try and do positive things that should make our lives better and everything just goes to shit.. every single time. If things just went wrong maybe once or … Continue reading Why is life so f*cking hard !
Absolutely Nothing it was a pointless waste of time. He kindly informed me that with BPD medication dosen't really work as there is no magic pill (which I already knew) and that basically I just have to get on with the struggle and with age it will hopefully get better as I will come to … Continue reading What I learnt from visiting my psychiatrist!
I don't know what's going on or why I am feeling this way but if it gets any worse I'm going to just breakdown... again..! My anxiety is through the roof, my depression is at an all time low, my BPD is more unstable than ever, my self esteem is non existent and I'm just … Continue reading I’m at an all time low..
So we finally have a date to move into our new home and it is in less than a month and we can't wait!! This house has taken a toll on both mine and Lee's mental health as there are so many problems with it including mould that we have reported and that our landlord … Continue reading Our Big move 2019
It is no secret that I am a sufferer of the soul destroying illness that is Borderline Personality Disorder so I wanted to let you know what it is actually like to live with this horrible illness from a person who actually suffers with the illness! Not from a book or a Dr from a … Continue reading May is Borderline Personality Disorder awareness Month
Tommorow will be the 3rd anniversary of my Grandad's death and it honestly still feels like it happened yesterday! Greif is a really weird emotion because although the three years have flown by the pain fells like it happened only yesterday! I can remember exactly where I was and what I was doing when my … Continue reading My not so good Friday!
I'm going to be honest as I always am. The person I am most proud of in my life is Milly of course but what I am most proud of about myself is the fact that I am still alive and sitting here writing this post. Because my god there has been many, many times … Continue reading What am I most proud of ?
I have felt like a failure my whole life but parenting is one thing I feel like I have and I am still failing at today. I have failed Milly from the moment she was born. Maybe not in a physical way but in an emotional way I totally have. Like I have said before … Continue reading How I fail at motherhood daily!
In the past three or four weeks I have really noticed a big change in my moods, not in the intensity that hasn't changed but the length of how long they are lasting so my moods used to change like every few hours now they are lasting weeks at a time and I can't deal … Continue reading My moods are Changing… for the worst
Today I was hurt by a family member not physically but emotionally, this family member I have loved and admired my whole life but today she changed I don't know why but she was against everything I said and she snapped at Lee over things that had nothing to do with her. So as you … Continue reading What do I need to get off my chest Today?