I know everyone's life is hard but ours just seems ridiculously hard. The world just seems to be against us with everything we try and do. We try and do positive things that should make our lives better and everything just goes to shit.. every single time. If things just went wrong maybe once or … Continue reading Why is life so f*cking hard !
Tommorow will be the 3rd anniversary of my Grandad's death and it honestly still feels like it happened yesterday! Greif is a really weird emotion because although the three years have flown by the pain fells like it happened only yesterday! I can remember exactly where I was and what I was doing when my … Continue reading My not so good Friday!
My mood has been so low recently and it's just getting worse and I don't think living in a mouldy house helps at all but that's not the main reason. The main reason is because it is coming it to the anniversary of my Grandad's death and I have never really allowed myself to grieve … Continue reading I’m falling to pieces
Yesterday was my Grandma's funeral and I was absolutely distraught and I felt like people was looking at me wondering why I was so upset because our relationship was so fragile. I also don't think it helped that I would tell people when she had pissed me off and I think that was one of … Continue reading Saying Goodbye!
I know I have been a bit M.I.A recently but I have had a lot going on as on Saturday night my Grandma sadly passed away and I feel awful about it! I just constantly feel guilty even tho people keep telling me not to but I do. I feel awful that my mum was … Continue reading The Loss of my Grandma 10/11/2018
I don't exactly know what this is wanting me to write really. Is it asking me what I remember everyday or is it asking about like memories that arn't overly exciting but are memories that stand out. My Grandad's mash this is what I have always rated other peoples mash against because he used to … Continue reading GRIEF:Everyday memories of you Grandad!
I wish my Grandad was here so I could tell him all the little things he used to do that I probably took for granted that meant so much to me and now looking back I would do anything for him to do those little things again. One of the things I miss is as … Continue reading GRIEF: The little things that meant a lot Grandad!
Whilst I'm sat here drinking my cold mug of coffee thinking about you and how my grandad made me feel whenever I was around him, I can feel my eyes starting to fill up with tears because I can't put into words what it feels like to live without him in my life. My Grandad … Continue reading GRIEF: How I felt when I was around you Grandad…
I mean this is a hard one to answer because my Grandad did so many things to make me laugh that choosing just one thing is going to be really hard. ...Thinking....Thinking.....Thinking... The thing that pops into my straight away was I think at either my brother's leaving do or when he came over from … Continue reading GRIEF: One thing you did that made me laugh Grandad.
I mean I miss everything about my Grandad but if I left it at that this would be a short post. So instead of leaving it at that I thought I would do the top 5 things I miss about my Grandad the most. 1. His Voice! My Grandad had a voice that showed exactly … Continue reading GRIEF: The things I miss the most about my Grandad!