I know I have touched on my struggles with body dysmorphia and eating disorders before but I thought I would go into more detail on this post about what I actually see when I look in the mirror and at the scales. So let me start by trying to explain what I see compared to … Continue reading What I see in the mirror. Life with Body Dysmorphia!
It's been bad for a long time but it's worse today. I woke up this morning wishing that I didn't this does happen a lot but today I was totally devastated that I didn't die in my sleep. I know how that sounds as I have a little girl to live for and my amazing … Continue reading It’s getting bad again!
This time it's not a person but a house! I know how strange that sounds but this house has had so much happen in it that it's so hard to leave it behind. I'm not talking about our house I couldn't give a shit about leaving this house behind but my Grandma and Grandad's house … Continue reading Saying goodbye!!..again!
This week is mental health awareness week and BBC have made a real effort to raise awareness around mental illness's that are not often spoken about and if they are it's not in a very informative way and doesn't create a very good image for sufferers of those images but BBC have done a really … Continue reading Must watch Programs on Mental illness
It is no secret that I am a sufferer of the soul destroying illness that is Borderline Personality Disorder so I wanted to let you know what it is actually like to live with this horrible illness from a person who actually suffers with the illness! Not from a book or a Dr from a … Continue reading May is Borderline Personality Disorder awareness Month
So in just under two weeks I will be going for my first dress fitting not for a spacific dress obviously but just to try on a range of different dresses to get a feel of what I like and I guess don't like but if I'm honest I am dreading it. It's my worst … Continue reading The Dress fitting!!
I want to start by making it clear that I am not saying that you all see the world one way and I see it the other as of course there is a grey area but that grey area doesn't exist in my life. My life is either black or white and there is nothing … Continue reading How I see the world compared to you!
One of the worst things about having mental health problems is the stigma against it! The fact that when you mention to people you have any sort of mental illness you instantly see either fear come across their face or just a look of disbelief and that hurts... a lot. The most common thing that … Continue reading Why is there such a stigma around mental health problems?
Well yesterday I couldn't have been happier and today I couldn't feel more depressed why? I hear you asking, what has changed? And my answer to those questions is nothing absolutely nothing has changed from yesterday to today apart from my mood. Yesterday I felt ontop of the world, I fel invisible, I felt loved, … Continue reading How do I feel in this moment?
As you all know... well if you follow my blog or my social media accounts you will know that my Grandma passed away recently and her funeral was last Wednesday and since then my mental health has deteriorated massively. Yes! I do understand that grief does that but this is another level of deterioration I … Continue reading How do I feel at the moment?