On Sunday I manged to force myself out of the house which is a battle in itself to take Milly up to where her daddy works as they were having a fun day and Milly had an absolute blast which is amazing and made me so happy but I was so on edge and severely … Continue reading A day in my life with crippling anxiety!
I know I have touched on my struggles with body dysmorphia and eating disorders before but I thought I would go into more detail on this post about what I actually see when I look in the mirror and at the scales. So let me start by trying to explain what I see compared to … Continue reading What I see in the mirror. Life with Body Dysmorphia!
It's been bad for a long time but it's worse today. I woke up this morning wishing that I didn't this does happen a lot but today I was totally devastated that I didn't die in my sleep. I know how that sounds as I have a little girl to live for and my amazing … Continue reading It’s getting bad again!
Absolutely Nothing it was a pointless waste of time. He kindly informed me that with BPD medication dosen't really work as there is no magic pill (which I already knew) and that basically I just have to get on with the struggle and with age it will hopefully get better as I will come to … Continue reading What I learnt from visiting my psychiatrist!
I know that some people will find that title difficult to read but it's the truth! I have felt like this for such a long time and everyday the feelings and thoughts get stronger and stronger. They are so strong I can't ignore them anymore I can't push them away anymore the thoughts are constantly … Continue reading I don’t want to be alive anymore!
This week is mental health awareness week and BBC have made a real effort to raise awareness around mental illness's that are not often spoken about and if they are it's not in a very informative way and doesn't create a very good image for sufferers of those images but BBC have done a really … Continue reading Must watch Programs on Mental illness
It is no secret that I am a sufferer of the soul destroying illness that is Borderline Personality Disorder so I wanted to let you know what it is actually like to live with this horrible illness from a person who actually suffers with the illness! Not from a book or a Dr from a … Continue reading May is Borderline Personality Disorder awareness Month
One of the worst things about having mental health problems is the stigma against it! The fact that when you mention to people you have any sort of mental illness you instantly see either fear come across their face or just a look of disbelief and that hurts... a lot. The most common thing that … Continue reading Why is there such a stigma around mental health problems?
So how do I go about answering this one do I do it from last Tuesday to this Tuesday or do I just do it for yesterday and today, either way it is going to be a short post because I'm not known for being victorious. I'm known for being a failure so bare with … Continue reading What are my victories this week?
So when I first thought about this two places popped into my little head one was my Grandma and Grandads house as I spent so much time there it was my second home and then the 2nd place was the Christmas Dinner at the Masonic lodge and I have a lot of happy memories from … Continue reading GRIEF: Our favourite place Grandad?