We are now 6 days into 2020 and everything is pretty much the same apart from Me and Lee are now married! That still feels weird to say especially when I say husband to people. I always giggle after for some reason and then for some reason I feel that I have to explain that … Continue reading New Year! Same old me!
I know everyone's life is hard but ours just seems ridiculously hard. The world just seems to be against us with everything we try and do. We try and do positive things that should make our lives better and everything just goes to shit.. every single time. If things just went wrong maybe once or … Continue reading Why is life so f*cking hard !
I'm going to be honest as I always am. The person I am most proud of in my life is Milly of course but what I am most proud of about myself is the fact that I am still alive and sitting here writing this post. Because my god there has been many, many times … Continue reading What am I most proud of ?
I have felt like a failure my whole life but parenting is one thing I feel like I have and I am still failing at today. I have failed Milly from the moment she was born. Maybe not in a physical way but in an emotional way I totally have. Like I have said before … Continue reading How I fail at motherhood daily!
In the past three or four weeks I have really noticed a big change in my moods, not in the intensity that hasn't changed but the length of how long they are lasting so my moods used to change like every few hours now they are lasting weeks at a time and I can't deal … Continue reading My moods are Changing… for the worst
I don't know if I have previously done a post on this or not but I will explain a little about why I am having to have surgery. I am going to be having surgery on my nose as I have a deviated septum which means instead of the cartilage in my nose being straight … Continue reading Looks like I’m having surgery!
One of the worst things about having mental health problems is the stigma against it! The fact that when you mention to people you have any sort of mental illness you instantly see either fear come across their face or just a look of disbelief and that hurts... a lot. The most common thing that … Continue reading Why is there such a stigma around mental health problems?
Yesterday was my Grandma's funeral and I was absolutely distraught and I felt like people was looking at me wondering why I was so upset because our relationship was so fragile. I also don't think it helped that I would tell people when she had pissed me off and I think that was one of … Continue reading Saying Goodbye!