It's been bad for a long time but it's worse today. I woke up this morning wishing that I didn't this does happen a lot but today I was totally devastated that I didn't die in my sleep. I know how that sounds as I have a little girl to live for and my amazing … Continue reading It’s getting bad again!
Absolutely Nothing it was a pointless waste of time. He kindly informed me that with BPD medication dosen't really work as there is no magic pill (which I already knew) and that basically I just have to get on with the struggle and with age it will hopefully get better as I will come to … Continue reading What I learnt from visiting my psychiatrist!
This time it's not a person but a house! I know how strange that sounds but this house has had so much happen in it that it's so hard to leave it behind. I'm not talking about our house I couldn't give a shit about leaving this house behind but my Grandma and Grandad's house … Continue reading Saying goodbye!!..again!
I know that some people will find that title difficult to read but it's the truth! I have felt like this for such a long time and everyday the feelings and thoughts get stronger and stronger. They are so strong I can't ignore them anymore I can't push them away anymore the thoughts are constantly … Continue reading I don’t want to be alive anymore!
I'm going to be honest as I always am. The person I am most proud of in my life is Milly of course but what I am most proud of about myself is the fact that I am still alive and sitting here writing this post. Because my god there has been many, many times … Continue reading What am I most proud of ?
Before I start I just want to make it clear to everyone I don't have a medical degree , I'm not a university graduate but what I am is somebody who suffers with mental health problems and can totally relate to other sufferers or I can at least try! All I can offer is advice … Continue reading WORLD SUICIDE PREVENTION DAY! Ten signs that your loved one may be suicidal !
I am going to be totally honest with you otherwise there is no point doing this blog. I want you all to be aware of how hard it actually is to live with the mental illness's I suffer with and it makes my brain a very dark place. I think about ending my own life … Continue reading A time I thought about ending my own life. (*trigger warning)
Hi everyone To choose a bad time in my life is quite a tricky one as I have had many in my 24 years of life! One of the worst time in my life after loosing my Grandad (which I have already wrote about) would have to be our freind committing suicide. Omg the day … Continue reading A difficult time in my life…
Hi everyone So I am going to be really honest as I am on all my posts so I feel I should possibly just put a trigger warning on this post as it will contain triggers for some. 1. Milly I mean of course I think about Milly everyday she is my baby girl I … Continue reading Top five things I spend my time thinking about..